Life seems overwhelmingly frustrating right about now ):<

I can't believe Vieve, Jen, AND Neen left me ALL ON THE SAME DAY!! I have an abandonment complex now.

I should go to UC Berkley, join the Peace Corps, go to Stanford's grad school, then work for the New York Times--that is untill I join the CIA--but that is another story. SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DOOO!!! Well, I know I can't leave jen, neen, and kel all by themselves, so I better just start at the peace corps part. Checked their website and I think it would be a good thing to do for a while. (:

A day of . . . um . . . just read it and decide for yourself . . .

Last night I went to Jennie's--I took the scenic rout. I drove from Rohnert Park to Sacramento, back up to Vacaville (: Yes, the drive was a surprise to me too. Anyway, when I finally learned to follow directions, I found Jennie and we went off to her little brother's confirmation dress rehearsal where we talked all about the kids up front, Robbie and his girlfriend, played with Jennie's niece, and chatted about school. Despite a couple of dirty looks I cought from the people sitting around us, I think we behaved quite nicely (: Well, at least better than ussual. After gorging on ice cream, we couldn't move, so we watched Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (i'd never seen it all through ): ) and then went to bed, where we spent a substantial amount of time discussing the lives of friends and mutual aquaintances from school. This, of course, didn't make a dent in the catching up we had to do, so we continued our mission to find out every detail of each other's lives when we went to get Jeanine. At the crack of dawn, we drove to West Sac, picked up the Neen, then off to the theatre, where we laughed and scoffed at the long lines waiting for tickets!! HAHA SO LONG SUCKERS!!! we thought of saying as we walzed past with our preordered tickets. But we were stopped in our tracks, right before the theatre entrance, to get CARDED!!! THE HUMILIATION!! It was all Jennie's fault! The lady thought she was 14 and trying to fake it or something. She was laughing so hard when the lady looked at her ID. The lady laughed too--that'll teach HER! Obeying the law like that--I mean REALLY! But we got awsome seats where we had a good view of the guy from Good Day Sacramento!!! WE were SO on TV. He interviewed people all over the room and filmed us cheering for the movie and everything . . . I got a good minute or MORE of screan time!!! I think all those talent-seekers who were watching will be very impressed--you'll see me starring in a major film in no time. Now the movie . . . well, let's just say there were quite a few times that the entire audience burst out loudly with intense expressions of emotions!!! It was absolutely no disapointment--no, more than that--it blew me away! After that we met Marci at Johnny Rockets where we gorged on burgers, shakes, and fries, heard all the juicy news of Marci's life, and watched the waiters and waitresses dance to the music we chose on our little table-juke-box. They were funny. (: Marc went home after that and, after a time of mourning her abscence, we made a drastic decision. Drunk on adrenaline and shakes, I announced my wild idea to the girls. They confirmed that it must be done! They too had let the action scenes from the movie go to their heads--we must have thought ourselves invinceable, because what we did next either took the courage of a thousand Greek heros, or the stupidy of a nineteen year old girl. Without disclosing which of the latter made me act on my idea, I will tell you that we proceeded quickly and joyously, as lambs to the slaughter, to Claire's. There they wrestled me into a chair and Jeannie held my hand while Jeanine spoke comforting words from behind Jennie (where, I might add, she couldn't see what was happening). And then, just like that, they shot me . . . twice . . . right in the head. A quick and sharp pain and then it was all over!!! and I had emerged a better person for the experience! In fact, it was downright pretty having a little bling bling goin' on up top! I'm still shocked at what a difference earrings make. WHEW! But it was intense! All you holeless people, know that this is not for the faint of heart!!! We did more shopping and visited BOTH of Jeanine's houses! (: Seeing the Reynolds kids was like meeting celebrities since I'd seen so many pictures of them and heard stories for a good year or two! They were AWSOME kids. Meeting people's families and dogs--and even cats--helps one to feel you've met another side of the person. So it was cool to meet Berta (she was awsome), Blue (punk), macey (or something), Mr. snyder, and the cats. We met a guy too, I think--a brother--and his wife was somewhere around--and another sister. Anyways, it was cool to meet the family (: So we dumped Neen back at her house, and drove sleepily back to Jen's, tired but fulfilled. However, as soon as I got in my own car, I was immidiatly haunted by doubts and questions about the movie's plot line!!! The next one comes out in six months and we've already made plans to see it--that's when I can start wearing dangly earrings so we'll get me some of those on the same day (: The anticipation is unbearable!!! But in the meantime, there is a reason to get through the next six months--YAY!!!

It's not about the choices we make or where they lead us as much as why we made those choices in the first place

I'm going to be gone for a couple days. My weekend plans were canceled, but I'm kind of glad. I suppose I don't always realize that I like a slower life, well paced and moderate. It's nice to see two frineds or just call someone instead of rushing to get together with this or that mob. maybe most of us are like that on the insed.

I think I had dreams of The Slate last night ): work will always haunt me!!

I haven't got my glasses on and I seriously can't read what I'm writing so if there are errors, forgive me.

I'm going to be gone for a couple days. My weekend plans were canceled, but I'm kind of glad. I suppose I don't always realize that I like a slower life, well paced and moderate. It's nice to see two frineds or just call someone instead of rushing to get together with this or that mob. maybe most of us are like that on the insed.

I think I had dreams of The Slate last night ): work will always haunt me!!

I haven't got my glasses on and I seriously can't read what I'm writing so if there are errors, forgive me.

I'm going to be gone for a couple days. My weekend plans were canceled, but I'm kind of glad. I suppose I don't always realize that I like a slower life, well paced and moderate. It's nice to see two frineds or just call someone instead of rushing to get together with this or that mob. maybe most of us are like that on the insed.

I think I had dreams of The Slate last night ): work will always haunt me!!

I haven't got my glasses on and I seriously can't read what I'm writing so if there are errors, forgive me.

Wow--today was cool. I talked to:

Vieve
neen
jen
Grace (well--last night/ealry this morning)
chirs
wangsu
mike
carol
ike
wootae
kelly
gail
and I guess that's about it! amazing (:

I haven't seen a single friend in close to three weeks! I love my family, but this is ridiculous! Can't wait to hang with my girls tomorrow.

Hello, dear friends (notice the formality--this is because I know all of you read this ):< so now I will be formal and cold and aloof, so THERE),

This is a letter to notify you that Mr. Clops is well. With hours of in-house treatment and months of bedrest, he is finally together again feeling renewed and rejuvinated!! Of course, I am still dealing with the trauma of the emotional and psychological end of the whole accident. I wonder, sometimes, if I can even consider him my same old Mr. Clops if he has a new hard drive. ): The fact that these questions even enter my mind disturbs me--I could use any available moral support durring this trying time in our lives. Meanwhile, welcome home, Mr. Clops!! (:

I was going to write something deep here tonight . . . something stirring . . . something earth shattering!! Something that would rock your world for years to come!!!! then I found out you guys actually read my blog ): So that's it. The end of my fascinating, deep, timeless, priceless, artistic masterpieces--colorful tapestries made from words woven into thoughts, ideas, and beautifully inspiring visions making one's sould soar above the clouds to heights never before imagined!!! No more . . . from now on I'm going to be flat, boring, and typical--difficult though this may be to a noble soul like me.

PS
If you have difficulty with humility, take your que from me--you can learn a lot!

i love my mom (:

More whining . . .

You know, I have a lot of problems with that story--pure rot I tell you ):< Can't stand the thing myself. The part that really gets me is that I attempted to tie in a romantic plot!!! PUKE!!!! You see, since I was young, I generally tried to keep romance out of my stories. I felt like there was so much more to life and so many better ways to make a point. Even as I wrote it I couldn't believe I was stooping to such LEVELS!! And I hate the name Jean. Ok, I have now vented (: Goodbye